Recently I became aware of three situations all simular in nature and instead of telling each story, I have composed an Ode for all three. The subjects are all men who are/were out of work for a long period of time and are/were being supported by their wives or girlfriends. One is a friend of mine, the others are the other halves of women who are co-workers. One committed suicide just a few days ago, the other has attempted it several times, the other has been out of work since 1999, has frequent spells of depression, self doubt and bitterness.... And it is difficult to say if a jobless man suffers more by not being able to provide and validate his worth by being employed. Or if their wives or girlfriends are more stressed by the situation. So my new Addition to "Suicide Hotel" is not a person but the entity "Dark Love". Dark Love, to all lovers who have thought of or have committed suicide or murder because of the shadows of love gone wrong....or perhaps shadows in oneself clouding up making "Dark Love."


Ode to Dark Love

Lovers can be cruel, manipulitive and abusive..
Because we let them...for the sake of peace
Because we fear they will leave
...or flail deeper abuse on us to control this "love"
Or perhaps ones spirit has been locked
away by too much pain to fight it.
But still it is our fault, because we let them. Walk away!
For there is no peace in this kind of "love"
This Love is Dark and will end in heartbreak or perhaps death
Murder or .......Suicide
But Taste the Dark Love then let it go....
If you have no love at all..
Take the Dark Love if you must see....
but soon you will say..."Let Me Be"
Hold the Dark Love like a wounded animal
But know you can not heal Dark Love, it must cure itself.
If you cling, it will surely bear its teeth into you..
For Dark Love is not love after all.
It is more more of Great Fall into an endless abyss
Climb out! You must!... but be ever so careful..
You may slip again and again before you are free
Take care not to let love become Dark.
For it will be a one way entrance down a dark labrynith
..........with no going back
You might not see your love going Dark in the beginning
You will deny, lie, coverup, delay....
hiding you tears and wounds with shame
Free yourself from Dark Love while YOU are still not to blame.



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